get on yo knees bitch.

PARTY.

my birthday is in...29 days[:

and what am i gonna do until then?

PARTY.

then?

PARTY.

after then?

PARTY.

yes yes yes, i love to party, and the word party.

Saran wrap Ashley also loves to party. her and and an

ex of her's happen to love drinking then sex with uhh,

well you can guess the reason she is called Saran wrap Ashley.

gahh honestly. when will i stop laughing at that?

NEVER.

oh oh oh!

taylor decook. aka current object of my affection.

hahahhaha for some reason i just thought of Juno songs.

gahh that kid is amazing.

Dig it.

i want summer sooo bad right now. i'm tired of this stupid snow and cold and not being able to open the windows. grr.

but but but

on a much happier note, my birthday is in 34 days

so that's pretty exciting. and and and im over trevor. i decided that i dont want him back i just want somebody and he was an easy target at the time. but now i have my eye on somebody new, well actually 2 people but one more than the other. and no, neither one is david, because i also decided that david is like my brother.

i really have a lot that i want to say but now i cant

think of any of it and that makes me mad

but oh well.

Gahhhh

Now. I am honestly going to keep my resolution now. I know why I like sleeping around and it's stupid. I'm always second in all my friendships, I feel like they're always better than me and they know it. All of them are prettier, skinnier, funnier, nicer, you name it and its better than me. What did I have going for me? Guys wanted sex from me, and not them. They get the realtionships with the good guys, and I get the sex. Even when I want a relationship I can't get it. I'm still second but sex makes me feel like shit now, so now I've got nothing going for me.

Fuckadamnbitchuptheass.

Godfuckingshitdamn.

Once upon a time, life fucking sucks.

The End

FunFact: Fort Wayne is the 3rd most sexually satisfied city in the United States, Indianapolis is the 1st. Go Indiana.

My New Year's Resolution:
not to be such a whore.

How's it working?
not 100% great.

Why not?
I like sex.

I mean I haven't had any since ohh, New Year's Eve, but I definantly have been planning with quite a few kiddos. Honestly though, I can't help it. I knew the first time I did it I would never be able to stop. As I type, I'm texting two kids who I'm planning on fucking in the near future. The other day my mom came in and was talking to me about how all guys are interested in is sex, and the whole time I was thinking, 1) that's not true, I can think of at least 3 exapmles of guys who aren't, and 2) what if that's all I'm interested in? I mean yea, I really super like a kid right now who i don't want to do anything with yet cause I honestly like him. On the other hand though, get me talking to the right person and I just can't help myself.